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Sunday 22 February, 2009
My second experience playing this game is not that much of an impovement compared to my first time. I was finally able to make it to the cafeteria and back to the car! Sadly, that also took about forty, forty five minutes. I did say I am not a gamer, and probably never will be. I won't go into detail about what I did playing this game for a second time, because since I didn't really encounter anything new in the game compared to what was written in my previous post. As I was playing the game, I can't help but to think that this is based on reality. The shootings did happen, the students did die, and everytime I got caught, I couldn't help feeling relieved. I mentioned that in my previous blog, but neglected to continue, because I was still frustrated about the fact that I couldn't even go from one end of the hall way to another. Now I can honestly think about the existance of the game, and how offending it must to towards the victims and the families of the victims of Columbine. These students died a tragedic death, that probably could have been prevented had people stop bullying others. Now there's a virtual version of what has happened to them out there in the world, and there are teens playing this game as the shooters, the murderers.
I am a reluctant to play this game, because I'm playing the role of real life murderers. How they reached to that point in life is sad, but sinking to the point of being a murderer and killing people you know without any signs of regret or sorrow is pretty scary. Playing this game, I can't help but think in the back of my mind, that this really happened, these guys really did shoot and kill people. A part of me was wondering as I played this game, how could they do this? In class, we talked about having relationships with characters that we developed, and once that character turns on us in the game, we would still be hesistant to kill them. This is real life though, these kids killed and shot students who they've seen everday, walked by. Though we may not have developed relationships with the people we sit go to school with, but just imagine Columbine happening here. The students who you've become used to sitting next to you or in front of you is no longer there. Just playing this game allowed me to really think about what happened in Columbine. Before when people would talk about the Columbine shootings, I would feel very sympathetic towards them, but I still couldn't picture myself in their shoes, whether its the shooters or the victims. This game allowed me to experience what the shooters were feeling and thinking. I don't feel very comfortable with it, maybe its because I know who these people were and what they did. By playing them, I am, in a way, siding with them and their actions, even if its wrong. You should never take a life, much less twelve others, because everyone has a right to live.
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